Late night

"Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passions spent.
My hearts a tart, your bodys rent.
My bodys broken, yours is spent"

How can it be, that I can't stop thinking about her for one minute, not drunk, not asleep, she haunts my dreams.
I blast music into my head, and the sound is her voice laughing at me. I write down my thoughts, and they're all about her. I feel weak, lost, in a haze.
What did I do wrong? She made me doubt my principles. But enough, I am not wrong.
I'll never give in. This is MY life, it made me who I am. If she loved me, she would change, cause who she loves, is a man made of such principles. And if she want's me to lose them for her, it's not love, maybe lust,but even that is doubtful.
I'm getting tired of running, and i can't hide anymore. Not the love i had for her, HAD, nao that I don't have it anymore, but I can't afford to.
Pain is all i get, and she laughs at it, she can go so long, without a call, when she's not alone. But she forgets who was there for her, when no one would. Who held her head, when no one wanted a fuck up.
Guess I didn't do enough to her to earn some respect and loyalty, and some compromises. I gave my life away for her, she gave her life away, period. Just because. I deserve better. Correction. I deserve less. Less bullshit. Less lies, and decievement. Less "forgive me".
Me me me me me, selfish, cause if not, she'll take it all, and there's not much left.
I need it, for someone worthy, someone that truns in her sleep to say I love you, not cause she's awake, but cause her heart is. Someone that holds me, and not cause it's cold, but cause I might go away in her sleep. Someone that I look forward to go to, to have with me, to be my best friend. My muse, my love, my friend.
To bring the out the best in each other. Not the worst. I had enough. 2 years, and back to where we started. All the best, I wish her safe from harm.