Insanity

"because you were never realy real, to begin with, I just made you up to hurt myself."


Wirl. Intertwine. Intersecting. Meshed.
Feelings... why?
I let go, but that chain still scars my ankle.
Slowly realising, how hard it is to find true love, just to lose it. Not that I was loved. But finaly that I gave all my love to someone. To lose that...
It's a beautiful day outside, I see that she has moved on. I did no wrong, why can't I move on? Find somewhere to have fun. I'm happy all day, till time comes to sit here. Still think about her all the time, every minute, but I drown it, bury it. SO DEEP, it feels like the very core of my sould is rotten!
It's a cancer, draining the life out of me, for so long, so long. Too long.
She felt like velvet, blond white skin, "like velvet".
Blur, my eyes don't cry but all i see is blur, it's been so hard to keep focus lately. Feels like a constant fading away from reality, drifting into a higher place, where sense is senseless, reason is unreasonable. And words are mute.
Today was good, now it's foggy. I have friends, but where are my brothers? Where are they hugging me? where are the tears silenced in laughter? where are they yelling "together we're invincible"? The weird sounds, the bizarre lights, my hometown, the familiar strangers. Those faces that you never seen before, yet, you can't forget. They remind you of that particular time in your life where, nothing happend.
Reading back it sounds stupid. But thou shall not erase thy posts.
So fuckitall.

Ciao