One in ten

I'm not going to let it go to waste, life is not going to keep me down! I keep on moving, and the stronger the stream, the harder I fucking paddle. It's slow, it's cold, it soaks my bones in grief, pounds my will to the ground. It won't kill, it will make me stronger. "Done, done and i'm on to the next one!"
Love isn't easy to forget, but it's a hell of alot easier to forget than all the pain she brought! But enough about her!
I'M BACK BABY, I'm smilling! I'm joking, not as much as I used to, but I'll get there. And I can't stop quoting "It's times like these you learn to live again".
It's kinda like I was away in greenland, in the cold, dark, no sun. And I just got back home, and saw the sun set, in my home town, my friends are comming up the road, laughing, catching me in the eye, hear their screams, I throw my wrists in the air, and I think. It's good to be home. That feeling, I'm having now. I feel the time going by, and that things are getting better, I'm strong enough to say no, weak enough to say yes, and never leave a kind person with a maybe. I'm am my best, renewed. I am the best I ever was, and improved. "Your trust, you must confess..."
"Are you gone and on to someone new?" I'm not, hope she is... I wish her safe from harm, she was my big life lesson so far.
I'm going to ROME! La bella italia!
I'm excited, alone, out in Rome, no idea where I'm staying, and I don't care. I'm me again, acting, not thinking. I'll survive it, and enjoy it!
I miss me... But I'm comming back, erasing the last 4 years of bad relationships. Cause this year. I have to have a new story to tell, good or drama. (hope no more drama) I want something new.
I used to worrie, "then I thought. Feck it, I'm in Ireland"
I realised I use "I", alot, cause I'm a fucking bastard, I'm Selfish, I'm great, I have a big ego. I'm amazing. me me me me MEEEE.
Time for me, after 22 years, it's deserved! It's due a long time.
Want to be my own role model, my own Hero. "My hero"

Going to have fun dammit!!! Even if it costs lives!